Weight Loss Progress

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Funny, Funny Food!

I think my relationship with food is changing, I no longer think about food all the time or wonder "what am  I going to eat at dinner" when I am just eating lunch. I am no longer planning my day around food and that is a good thing.

Don't get me wrong, I still do think about food. I have to think about food in order to make sure I am making healthy choices, because when I get too hungry I can eat anything including fast food....which unless it is an emergency I do not want to go there again! Although I think about what I am going to eat and try to plan my meals, I do not think about food in an obsessive manner anymore. Which is a step in the right direction.

I know that I have a LONG way to go to in this rebirth process. I do not trust myself eating certain things- chocolate and ice cream being two big ones. One reason is the sugar- it is the devil! Another reason is that chocolate and ice cream are sliders, meaning they can go right by the lapband as though it wasn't even there b/c they melt. Knowing this is dangerous enough for me at this point in my weight loss process, but to actually have any and risk the craving for more and knowing that I could have more....that is dangerous for me right now. I am not ready yet. One day maybe I will be ready, but it is not yet. When the day comes that I can have just one piece of chocolate without the fear of succumbing to the cravings for more than that will be a big day for me, but until then I will abstain. No chocolate! No ice cream! No high sugar sweety type foods! No carb bombs!

I am feeling good, I do not crave sweets or carbs. And I do not feel like going through that sugar withdrawal again...it is a real thing....and it is not fun. I do not want to stop feeling how I feel now: energized and ready to take on the world! Especially not for a piece of chocolate or something stupid like that.

I am getting to the point where although food can definitely be enjoyable and a bonding experience with family/friends it is also becoming just food. The fuel my body needs to keep going. I do need to get better at keeping on track of my hunger and thirst signals as I sometimes (often times) let both go far too long which results in me eating too fast.

In summation, progress is the stepping stone to a life well lived!

Thanks for reading. <3

Friday, June 3, 2011

Busy Week, Sorry for Disappearing!

Hello Everyone! Happy Weekend already!

I know I have not posted all week and I'm sorry. But it has been a busy week and I will leave it at that.

I have had a lot of time to think over the past two days and I have decided (drum roll please!) that I am going to start training for a 5k. There are two that I am interested in doing at the end of August, I will pick one and do it. There is either the Saybrook 5k or the Bluefish Festival 5k in Clinton and both are in the last two weeks of August.

Late August will give me enough time to do the Couch to 5K App I bought on my iPhone and if my body holds up than that will be my fitness goal for the summer. If I like it and it doesn't kill my knee, ankle or feet than I will keep running and doing 5K's throughout the fall. The Couch to 5K app, or C25K, has you starting off really slow three days a week where you alternate walking and jogging until by the end of the nine week program you are running ten and then walking one minute. Going slow and losing weight throughout this process will hopefully make it so that my body (with all of my nuts and bolts ;-(  will be able to handle the stressors of running. I hope it can, I am excited about this and hopefully this will increase my activity level overall throughout the summer and help me lose weight faster.

My weight loss goal by the end of the summer is to have lost 34lbs from where I stand on June 1 (46lbs down in total so far) for a total of 80lbs down. This is my goal and hopefully with the exercise and all I can get there - three full months or 11.34 lbs per month. I don't think that is too drastic or unrealistic, but we will see how my body feels about that....lol.

I am starting the C25K on Sunday, this will give me eleven weeks to prepare for my 5K in August. I am ready....bring it!

As for my food this week, I have been good. Lots of fish with a side Japanese Cucumber Salad, 3-4oz of  fish and 1 oz of veggies (4oz for dinner and 3oz for lunch with 1oz of veggies at each meal). This week I have done shakes for breakfast, not bad and it keeps me full but I'm not sure it keeps me as full as an omelet. I will have to do further experimentation.

Well, I am back and I promise no more breaks like this past week again. I missed blogging and venting. This is therapy to me...just like Weight Watchers.

GNite. <3 till tomorrow!!!!