I think my relationship with food is changing, I no longer think about food all the time or wonder "what am I going to eat at dinner" when I am just eating lunch. I am no longer planning my day around food and that is a good thing.
Don't get me wrong, I still do think about food. I have to think about food in order to make sure I am making healthy choices, because when I get too hungry I can eat anything including fast food....which unless it is an emergency I do not want to go there again! Although I think about what I am going to eat and try to plan my meals, I do not think about food in an obsessive manner anymore. Which is a step in the right direction.
I know that I have a LONG way to go to in this rebirth process. I do not trust myself eating certain things- chocolate and ice cream being two big ones. One reason is the sugar- it is the devil! Another reason is that chocolate and ice cream are sliders, meaning they can go right by the lapband as though it wasn't even there b/c they melt. Knowing this is dangerous enough for me at this point in my weight loss process, but to actually have any and risk the craving for more and knowing that I could have more....that is dangerous for me right now. I am not ready yet. One day maybe I will be ready, but it is not yet. When the day comes that I can have just one piece of chocolate without the fear of succumbing to the cravings for more than that will be a big day for me, but until then I will abstain. No chocolate! No ice cream! No high sugar sweety type foods! No carb bombs!
I am feeling good, I do not crave sweets or carbs. And I do not feel like going through that sugar withdrawal again...it is a real thing....and it is not fun. I do not want to stop feeling how I feel now: energized and ready to take on the world! Especially not for a piece of chocolate or something stupid like that.
I am getting to the point where although food can definitely be enjoyable and a bonding experience with family/friends it is also becoming just food. The fuel my body needs to keep going. I do need to get better at keeping on track of my hunger and thirst signals as I sometimes (often times) let both go far too long which results in me eating too fast.
In summation, progress is the stepping stone to a life well lived!
Thanks for reading. <3